infant loss – Puzzle Pieces of my Heart

Lyra the Toy Poodle

Where do I start? I’m not a huge animal, person. Jake has been very open and honest about wanting a dog for a couple of years now. I always had a dog growing up, but I was a teenager, I had no interest in walking them, they barked all the time and they got underContinue reading “Lyra the Toy Poodle”

Is it ok to cry?

Everyone tells you that it is ok to cry, but is it? Early advice following a bereavement of any kind is that it is ok to cry. People worry that you’re going to hold it all in and deny your emotions time but the truth is that your emotions take time themselves. In the daysContinue reading “Is it ok to cry?”

Unanswered questions and prayer.

My head has been a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions since Tobias was poorly. During pregnancy, I always had a voice in my mind that told me ‘it will be ok’. At 20 weeks we discovered that Tobias was not developing the way that he should be. Coming out from the appointment I didn’t knowContinue reading “Unanswered questions and prayer.”

‘Baking is good for your soul’

I loved baking my cinnamon loaf earlier in the week. This week brought another perfect opportunity to bake. My nieces are on half term and looking for things to do to keep busy everyday, why not bake?? They came to my house with packed lunches in tow, ready for a full day of baking. TheContinue reading “‘Baking is good for your soul’”

One Moment at a Time.

The book that made me feel ‘normal’- Ask Me His Name- Elle Wright Over the past few days I have made a conscious effort to be proactive in seeking support and guidance for life after baby loss. Living life after the loss of Tobias at times seems impossible. The meaning of my life has beenContinue reading “One Moment at a Time.”

The power of Facebook

‘Infant loss group.’ 2 Months after losing Tobias and I am wondering how people do it. By ‘it’ I mean life. How do people live life after baby loss? I would wake up every morning wondering how to motivate myself, what to work towards now, what should my goals be, what was the point inContinue reading “The power of Facebook”

Memory Making with Tobias

Tobias is my baby boy, he was born on October 11th 2019. We knew from the moment he was born that there could be a possibility we might have limited time together. Knowing this meant that I wanted to make as many memories as possible. The hospital gave us a Louis Box. This box isContinue reading “Memory Making with Tobias”

Our Story

Tobias Charlie Jackson I wanted to continue writing from my previous post ‘The Safe Zone’ but I’m not sure how. It is a long story, you may want to sit back comfortably with a cup of tea and prepare for a long and emotional ride, i’ll try to be as precise as a can. IContinue reading “Our Story”