For so long I have tried to explain how I feel as a bereaved mother living in a world that continues to turn; life goes on as if nothing ever happened, people continue to walk down the street with a smile on their faces while I scream in silence, grieving the loss of my babyContinue reading “The World I Once knew”
Category Archives: infant loss
Is it ok to cry?
Everyone tells you that it is ok to cry, but is it? Early advice following a bereavement of any kind is that it is ok to cry. People worry that you’re going to hold it all in and deny your emotions time but the truth is that your emotions take time themselves. In the daysContinue reading “Is it ok to cry?”
Unanswered questions and prayer.
My head has been a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions since Tobias was poorly. During pregnancy, I always had a voice in my mind that told me ‘it will be ok’. At 20 weeks we discovered that Tobias was not developing the way that he should be. Coming out from the appointment I didn’t knowContinue reading “Unanswered questions and prayer.”
‘Baking is good for your soul’
I loved baking my cinnamon loaf earlier in the week. This week brought another perfect opportunity to bake. My nieces are on half term and looking for things to do to keep busy everyday, why not bake?? They came to my house with packed lunches in tow, ready for a full day of baking. TheContinue reading “‘Baking is good for your soul’”
Valentines Day
I never really think much of Valentines Day. It is always nice to do something special but i’m not a huge fan of crap, unwanted presents or soppy cards with a talking heart on the front. That being said Valentines Days was once very special. It is was day Jake and I got engaged. ItContinue reading “Valentines Day”
Beads of Courage
Tobias collected over 200 beads. The Beads of Courage aims to ‘transform the bedside experience of caring for children and teens with serious illness through innovative Arts-in-Medicine Programs.’ They surely did that for us! The day after Tobias was born was the first time I got to see him in the NICU. The NICU wasContinue reading “Beads of Courage”
One Moment at a Time.
The book that made me feel ‘normal’- Ask Me His Name- Elle Wright Over the past few days I have made a conscious effort to be proactive in seeking support and guidance for life after baby loss. Living life after the loss of Tobias at times seems impossible. The meaning of my life has beenContinue reading “One Moment at a Time.”
The power of Facebook
‘Infant loss group.’ 2 Months after losing Tobias and I am wondering how people do it. By ‘it’ I mean life. How do people live life after baby loss? I would wake up every morning wondering how to motivate myself, what to work towards now, what should my goals be, what was the point inContinue reading “The power of Facebook”
Memory Making with Tobias
Tobias is my baby boy, he was born on October 11th 2019. We knew from the moment he was born that there could be a possibility we might have limited time together. Knowing this meant that I wanted to make as many memories as possible. The hospital gave us a Louis Box. This box isContinue reading “Memory Making with Tobias”
Our Story
Tobias Charlie Jackson I wanted to continue writing from my previous post ‘The Safe Zone’ but I’m not sure how. It is a long story, you may want to sit back comfortably with a cup of tea and prepare for a long and emotional ride, i’ll try to be as precise as a can. IContinue reading “Our Story”
Puzzle Pieces of my Heart 