For so long I have tried to explain how I feel as a bereaved mother living in a world that continues to turn; life goes on as if nothing ever happened, people continue to walk down the street with a smile on their faces while I scream in silence, grieving the loss of my babyContinue reading “The World I Once knew”
Category Archives: baby loss
Lyra the Toy Poodle
Where do I start? I’m not a huge animal, person. Jake has been very open and honest about wanting a dog for a couple of years now. I always had a dog growing up, but I was a teenager, I had no interest in walking them, they barked all the time and they got underContinue reading “Lyra the Toy Poodle”
Is it ok to cry?
Everyone tells you that it is ok to cry, but is it? Early advice following a bereavement of any kind is that it is ok to cry. People worry that you’re going to hold it all in and deny your emotions time but the truth is that your emotions take time themselves. In the daysContinue reading “Is it ok to cry?”
Unanswered questions and prayer.
My head has been a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions since Tobias was poorly. During pregnancy, I always had a voice in my mind that told me ‘it will be ok’. At 20 weeks we discovered that Tobias was not developing the way that he should be. Coming out from the appointment I didn’t knowContinue reading “Unanswered questions and prayer.”
‘Baking is good for your soul’
I loved baking my cinnamon loaf earlier in the week. This week brought another perfect opportunity to bake. My nieces are on half term and looking for things to do to keep busy everyday, why not bake?? They came to my house with packed lunches in tow, ready for a full day of baking. TheContinue reading “‘Baking is good for your soul’”
‘Baked With Love.’
Before pregnancy took over my body I would spend my weekends pottering around in the kitchen, testing new recipes or trialling a fancy decoration technique that would never go to plan. Even in the busiest of weekends, I would always seem to find time to bake between marking or planning lessons, rustling up a bakeContinue reading “‘Baked With Love.’”
Valentines Day
I never really think much of Valentines Day. It is always nice to do something special but i’m not a huge fan of crap, unwanted presents or soppy cards with a talking heart on the front. That being said Valentines Days was once very special. It is was day Jake and I got engaged. ItContinue reading “Valentines Day”
Beads of Courage
Tobias collected over 200 beads. The Beads of Courage aims to ‘transform the bedside experience of caring for children and teens with serious illness through innovative Arts-in-Medicine Programs.’ They surely did that for us! The day after Tobias was born was the first time I got to see him in the NICU. The NICU wasContinue reading “Beads of Courage”
One Moment at a Time.
The book that made me feel ‘normal’- Ask Me His Name- Elle Wright Over the past few days I have made a conscious effort to be proactive in seeking support and guidance for life after baby loss. Living life after the loss of Tobias at times seems impossible. The meaning of my life has beenContinue reading “One Moment at a Time.”
The power of Facebook
‘Infant loss group.’ 2 Months after losing Tobias and I am wondering how people do it. By ‘it’ I mean life. How do people live life after baby loss? I would wake up every morning wondering how to motivate myself, what to work towards now, what should my goals be, what was the point inContinue reading “The power of Facebook”
Puzzle Pieces of my Heart 