Before pregnancy took over my body I would spend my weekends pottering around in the kitchen, testing new recipes or trialling a fancy decoration technique that would never go to plan. Even in the busiest of weekends, I would always seem to find time to bake between marking or planning lessons, rustling up a bake in 20 minutes while I thought of my 100th creative way to teach addition of 1 digit numbers!
During pregnancy as the stress mounted, I found less and less time and motivation to bake. Every second I had was taken up by planning family holidays, buying decorations for the nursery or looking at newborn christmas photo shoots. Something I once loved to do was suddenly far less exciting than the idea of having a family!
Now I am searching for things that make me, Me. I spend lots of time wondering what my purpose is now, what can I use to motivate myself, how can I keep busy? For a while it was difficult to think of what I used to do before Tobias was here. On the next stage of this journey I really hope to find out if what made me happy before can make me happy again.
After a very emotional weekend I decided that Sunday was the day for baking. I set out in search of a sweet, fat-free recipe and came across a very strange list of ingredients to make a cinnamon loaf, including apple sauce and buttermilk. Who knew buttermilk contained less than 1% fat?! After a couple of hours in the kitchen and a trip to the local Asda, the cinnamon loaf was ready to eat. It was actually delicious (especially warm). I’m so glad I have found time to bake again. I’m still not sure if the baking helped or if it was just a good way to kill some time without having to leave the house but either way, i’ll be doing it again soon.
‘Baked With Love- From Chainie’s Kitchen’
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